Quote from: In the Meantime: The Practice of Proactive Waiting by Rob Brendle.

Over the past several years, I have come to believe that the sincerely meant and dramatically expressed petitions of my early adulthood were entirely off the mark. In fact, it’s clear to me now that my pleas for God to use me were nonsensical, and here’s why. Passionately pleading for God to use us is like passionately pleading for fire to be hot or for water to be wet. God by his very nature uses people. Yet we have cultivated for ourselves an unwritten theology that we must persuade God to use us to accomplish his plans. It’s as if he were determined to use angels or seraphim or the perpetually bowing elders to build his kingdwom, and we try to convince him with our passion and our logic and our sheer resolve to let us do it instead. So we imagine that we twist his arm until he cries uncle and finally says, ” Oh all right. Go ahead and do some work for my kingdom if you must.” Friend, understand that serving God to advance his kingdom’s dominion on the earth is not something we have to beg him to do; it’s something He has already chosen us for. It is hard-wired into our very being to respond affirmatively to this choice of His. His call on our lives - the very call we have believed and cherished - confirms it.

Honestly, for me, it’s not about asking God to use me for His kingdom as it is convincing myself that *I* want to be used *by* Him. I’m comfortable where I am in life (for the most part) not really thinking about how God is using me and how He will use me in the future. I just chug along with day-to-day life, trying to be a positive example and live a good life. God’s using me wherever I am, even though I’m not asking to be used, yet I can fill Him tugging at my heart to go above and beyond where I am right now. He’s trying to get me to pay attention, trying to get me to expand my horizons and realize that there’s so much more out there. In those seemingly rare times when I do talk to God about using me, I’m really talking to myself, trying to get myself ready to be used, trying to get myself ready to go where I’m not comfortable.

God makes use of what He has. But am I letting Him make use of all that I have?